My self esteem has been very low these past few days... that's why i sulk myself onto work most of the time.
I'd rather not talk to anyone about how i'm feeling...
i was a stranger in my own turf...
i was in an unknown dimension...
But one wednesday morning, while i was changing into my uniform, from my morning walk to the office, i find myself crying...
I finally found a shoulder to cry on, it was with my friend Janice.
It begun with just a simple sharing of work, duties in the office, that's how we do it everytime we bump into each other.
But because i was at my lowest point, i was not able to control it. I cried while i told her how i feel. i know she wouldn't understand completely, but having to let it out is good enough for me.
I don't want even the very people i work with everyday to see me breaking down, i dont feel like letting them know that i'm tired.
I don't really think what i feel matter to them.
These past few days, i felt like nothing.
So this is how i am going to be from now on.
I'm not sure if i can do it, but i'll try.
I was always exerting effort to these people to accept me, to belong in this group. But i still feel alone. Even with the very people that i felt i am close.
If this is my reality for now.. so be it...
I'm going back to my own dimension now....
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