2012 was a challenging year for me...
i wasn't even sure if i want relive and blog it, but doin' it would mean i am over it and i have to move on...
it was a year of new hope, but then again, it disappeared...
it was a year where i gained new profession, yet still no accomplishments...
it was a year of trials that i thought would never stop...
As i do every start of the new year, i have to evaluate all aspects of my 2012 and move from there... After a month that i only realized that i am ready to do this...
Let's see how i did...
Spiritualy -- it was challenging. I was thrown in the face with may challenges that questioned by very core. There are times that i myself questioned the reasons why life is given and yet to be taken away... When i was given hope, it has to be taken away...
But through the lost of my child, my faith was strengthen... And after the long list of questions, i began to realize that all that had happened was for the good. However painful, until now, lessons have been learned. I just have to accept that i have learned it the hardest way...
Physically -- No good. I have gained double digit pounds. I can't even look at myself in the mirror. I honestly look like a manang with match bulging tummy. All i needed was to be in a "daster" and i am all set.
Because of my emergency cesarian and apendectomy, i am not advise to perform any strenuous activities. And as my natural slow metabolism and love to eat, i gained weight, Unfortunately. My only consolation are my 2 boys enjoyed playing with my tummy and it makes them smile.. they might have thought that i have eaten na very large gelatin and it stayed on mama's tummy...
Emotionally -- Insane. The many downs made me so vulnerable to any situation. I cry to a very lame scene on my TV. I can easily look at something and cry. I can never count how many sleepless nights i have and was just crying. I feel i am loosing sanity. Am i?
Intellectually -- Last year, i have gained knowledge on how i can be a Financial Advisor. I learned about insurance and mutual funds.
And also i realized, that being a programmer and a financial adviser doesn't go together. The busy schedule of a programmer didn't gave me enough time to talk to clients and meet my quota...So i guess, in the long run, i have to choose what i love the most... not yet anyway...
Sexually - Satisfied. Period.
Financially -- Still Challenging.Our obligations for our new house started this year and we have to adjust and religiously stick to our budget, if we want to stay together...
It's hard to realize that you know where to put your money for investment, yet you have no money to invest. So still, i continue to dream and dream until i am able to start...
Hoping and praying to be in good financial standing by end of next year...
If i have to grade and sum up my 2012, it's not a good year... We were bombarded by so may trials, we were working like cows yet savings are minimal.. It was our all-time low...yet we are still standing up and facing life as it come... hoping and really really praying hard that the next year would be a better one...
Godspeed!
